Monday, 22 August 2016

Its's not as easy as you think

   When I say I wanna slack off a bit, I would get alot of these "Aiya, you smart ma, no need study also can one" "Hmm, gifted maa," "You nevermind ma, smart ady one" "Smart people ma, slack also can get A one" and etc...

   Bullsh*t. Yes, I've said it. That is all bullsh*t talk. Allow me to spread a little knowledge.

   No, I wasn't born smart. When I was in primary, I was ranked second last in the whole entire form. That's right, stupid kid in the last class getting second last rank. THAT IS ME. I worked my way to where I am today. I spend nights crying when I couldn't understand. I threw some books. Screamed like I was possessed. I've been pushing myself to get to this spot. I wasn't born smart. So, don't give me all that "Aiya, smart people ma" crap. I WORKED MY FREAKING BUTT OFF TO GET TO WHERE I AM. Yes, I don't physically study in front of you all the time but that doesn't mean I don't study at all.




   No, I'm not born with some magical talent to play the piano. Behind every piece I play, there's always a lot of trying and failing. A lot of banging. A lot of tears cuz of stress. A lot of sore fingers(especially my thumb cuz I have a cacat thumb). A lot of late night practicing till my mom will scream "MELLISSA! PEOPLE SLEEPING!". A lot of note alteration. All of that, and my playing is never good enough.

   Don't come to me and be like "Aiya, you sure have it easy since you are gifted,". Pure crap. Just because sometimes I don't stress it out in front of you doesn't mean it was easy. Things are not easy as you think. It's all through hard work. Practice. More hard work and more getting up after countless times of failures.



   No. Don't talk to me as if things were soooo easy. Don't insult me like that. The amount of efforts I put are not as tiny as a pea.