Compliments

   Well, as what is written in my bio, I dislikes compliments. This a habit I've been carrying since I was young. And often people keep telling me "Don't be so fake". There also some friends who will tell me "You don't have to be so modest to that extent".

   First of all, yes part of the reason why I dislike compliments is because I'm trying to be modest. PART OF IT. Second, I'm not being fake. I seriously can get annoyed when you compliment me. That's because the other part of the reason is because I don't know how to react to compliments.

This is how I react most of the time.

   I don't know how to react to compliments it's because I'm too used with negative comments that compliments just seem unreal to me. I wasn't a smart kid to begin with. When I was in primary, I was in the last class and I always get the second last rank in exams. And people always tell me things like this "You are gonna be a disgrace to your family", "You won't have a good future", "What a shame", "You're so stupid" and so on. I grew up living with these negative comments. Which is why when someone compliment me, it just seems so unreal.

   Sometimes there are people who are really complimenting sincerely. And I feel so bad for not knowing how to react to it. Which is why I rather not be complimented. Yes, physically I will say thank you and all, but honestly, I don't believe you even tho you are being very sincere. I'm not faking it. Don't label me fake just because some of you guys love fishing for compliments ok.