Compliments

   Well, as what is written in my bio, I dislikes compliments. This a habit I've been carrying since I was young. And often people keep telling me "Don't be so fake". There also some friends who will tell me "You don't have to be so modest to that extent".

   First of all, yes part of the reason why I dislike compliments is because I'm trying to be modest. PART OF IT. Second, I'm not being fake. I seriously can get annoyed when you compliment me. That's because the other part of the reason is because I don't know how to react to compliments.

This is how I react most of the time.

   I don't know how to react to compliments it's because I'm too used with negative comments that compliments just seem unreal to me. I wasn't a smart kid to begin with. When I was in primary, I was in the last class and I always get the second last rank in exams. And people always tell me things like this "You are gonna be a disgrace to your family", "You won't have a good future", "What a shame", "You're so stupid" and so on. I grew up living with these negative comments. Which is why when someone compliment me, it just seems so unreal.

   Sometimes there are people who are really complimenting sincerely. And I feel so bad for not knowing how to react to it. Which is why I rather not be complimented. Yes, physically I will say thank you and all, but honestly, I don't believe you even tho you are being very sincere. I'm not faking it. Don't label me fake just because some of you guys love fishing for compliments ok.

Piano

   So recently I had an issue where our landlord sold the house that we were renting and wants me to move out as soon as possible. Finding a new house in such a short period of time was not easy. My piano was another problem since it's so heavy and big. Many times my mother said she wanted to sell it. When my mother broke the news to me saying we had to move, I thought to myself, my piano is gonna be a burden again. And again the moving workers will complain saying my piano is too heavy and stuff like that. I told my mom "If the piano is a burden to you, sell it,". Honestly, I don't know why I said that but I regretted it right after.

   I suddenly burst out crying in the driving institute. My sister, Tiffany, was so shocked. Never in her life has she ever see me cry, what more see me cry in public since I am a human of pride. The thought of losing my piano shattered my heart.

   So, I went home and talked to some of my friends. Lyanne said, "If you sell it now, buying another piano in the future is not gonna be easy and cheap". She's a pianist too. Well some other friends told me that, you know you should grow up and just sell you piano. Just sacrifice your piano and buy it once you work. There are also some friend who said to me, money wise, yes selling your piano does give you a lot of money and helps to lessen your burden of moving. But I think that piano means something more than just a musical instrument to you.

   I ended making the decision not to sell it. That sentence "But I think that piano means something more than just a musical instrument to you." finally made me understand why my heart shattered and why I could burst out crying in public.

   That piano of mine was with me for 9 years. It has been with me for half of my life. I got it when I was 9. Growing up to be a teenager was not easy for me since I was emotionally volatile at that time and my mother was never emotionally there for me. She's a workaholic, can't blame her for it. That piano was all I got. My sadness, anger, happiness and joy was expressed through the pieces I play on my piano. It became the place I express myself, and it became something so dear to me.

   For those of you who asked me to grow up and sell it, it's not because I'm holding on to a childish attitude. But it's because that was the only thing that was with me when everyone else wasn't. It meant more than just a musical instrument. On top of that, I really love music. Hearing the sound of a piano or any instrumental music calms me down.

   I can spend hours just playing the piano. That's how much I love it. I usually play the piano from 10am-12pm and 1pm-4pm everyday. I won't even get bored.

   Thank you to the friends who made me realised how important my piano meant to me. I was so close to losing it forever. Also if any of you who have something that you cherish dearly, feel free to share it, I'd like to know what is your "piano".

My Favourite Place

Well recently our English teacher ask us to write an essay about our favourite place. I wrote about something. It's not real. I don't really have a favourite place. It was more like a place I dream that it exist. I didn't really did a good job writing it because my ideas was so not organized and I just end up crapping my way through. XD and now I feel so not satisfied not being able to express myself well. I'm going to write it here then but this is gonna be a more informal kind. My favourite place or dream place I should say is a café. It's a two-storey café and it's near my place. Maybe around 5 minutes walking distance. The café would be able to create a very relaxing atmosphere for the customer. You know, after a long day of work you can just come here and relax plus have a cup of coffee. The café would play like a relaxing piano music. And maybe not so bumpy and busy. Like as in very noisy like when you go to hawker stalls. It would be more like a place where it's just a place for you to enjoy your cup of coffee. It's quiet enough that you can hear the barista brewing the coffee  the music but not too quiet until it feels like a library. It would be decorated in like an elegant country mixed with modern style interior design. They have the exposed bricks elements  and maybe with pastel colour furnitures. Whenever I feel like it, I can just go up to the 2nd floor. I would sit at the balcony and just enjoy the night city view. Sometimes I can sit at the 1st floor and just look at the barista brewing the coffee. Apparently, I really like to think things way too deep. So even looking at barista brewing coffee can amaze me Because it takes like so many steps to prepare a cup of coffee plus the coffee art that they would do which takes a lot of training to get it done right. The café would also have a "Wish Tree" for the customers to write their wishes and hang it on the tree. But for me, I would write down my problems and hang it on the tree as a symbol to show that it's over and it has past I must move on. Besides the interior designs It would also be nice if the café rotates the food menu everyday in a week Like maybe on Monday you have apple pie then on Tuesday you have chicken pie or something like that then the next Monday, you have apple pie again. and maybe on Sundays they can do like a chef's special. (Do not judge me, this is my "dream" place) Then the café would have a small section where they keep the books and stuff. For the customer to read. Or maybe they can put like arts and crafts there so that people who likes arts and crafts can do something and just leave it there as a decoration for them. Whenever I go there, I can feel very relax and I can escape from the stress of the world. If this place really exist, it would definitely be my favourite place. Too bad, I can't find a café like this so it remains in my dream. But one day, if I have enough money, I would definitely open a café just like this. :) Maybe not everyone will enjoy it the way I do But I would really love to spread the feeling of relax to my customers. Hey you reading this right now, if you have a favourite place or perhaps a dream place, tell me about it. I would really love to know about how a place can actually make you feel so calm
and you just really love it. :P I just copied this from my old blog. 

About me~~

Name : Mellissa Nielly

Bday Date : 25.07.98

Fav Food: SEAFOOD~!! Vegetables and home-made food. 

Fav. Drink : Tea

Fav. Colour : Purple~~ 

Fav. Snack : Hmm, no idea.

BFF'S : Rilakkuma~!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA. :3 They know who they are, no need for mentioning.

Nickname: Melly, Flowey, Myra, Hana, Yuki<-- all because of my IGN, except Melly

Ambition : Psychiatrist, or a potato. 

Hobby : Playing piano, gaming, writing novels and sometimes drawing~~

Fav. Subject : Sleep xD jk, Music, English, Maths and Add Maths, for now.

Fav. Novels: Self-improvement genres, fantasy and action novels. 

Dislikes: Love novels, Food thast are too spicy, Oily food, Compliments.

Loves: FOOD! RILAKKUMA! MUSIC! xD and bloody things(don't ask why, I just love it)

Cares:  For my health and RILAKKUMA! Yes, I am a health conscious person despite my love for food.

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Smile even at your hardest times.

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:3 I'll be writing some of my life stories and some random nonsense stories that just pop up in my head. 
PS, I am the world's first flower pianist xD haha jk